Francis is.."was" seems so harsh..he's been gone now
for 2 months exactly..its january the 8th 2004...still here i
am
trying to come to terms...still tryin' to beat myself to sleep......!
it's so easy to say nice things about someone who's gone for good you know,
but then i know Francis and i know he's lookin' and watchin' me as i write this...
wish i felt nothing really about him..wish i were as insensitive as you all..that
might make it easier on me....Israel and i had a misunderstanding 4 days after
his death...'sAlim nangmah chauh hian i tuar bik lo tih hi hre rawh"..one statement
i'll never forget..good that he told me straightaway....but then..now it seems really
that i am the only one...and it aint a mystery as it feels that nobody here needs me...
Francis was..Francis is...will always to me be that person who was..who is able
to inspire the weaknesses in you..he was ..he is God damn it...some one who
knew..who knows what self control was..is...all about....He was perfect..he will
always be perfect...and im not ashamed...im proud of him...and i miss him....2004
is here ,,,2005...2006...whatever will come...but then Francis will never be Forgotten..so
you might have now....you might not for long....i miss you in a Heartbeat Francis......i know you're smiling somewhere....